"Are you ready for another referral?"
There... it is said and it sits hard. "Yes." I hear myself saying..."we are ready to take it day by day. Yes, we are ready for another referral."
We have been home for 2 1/2 weeks from our Ethiopian trip where things went SO not as anticipated. We know now that there was lying, dishonesty and pure evil involved in the fabrication of little Y's story. That the man who committed perjury in all of this will be going away (hopefully) for a very long time. And that is enough. That he is in the right place with the right person- his mother. That is enough.
That does not take away the hole we feel in our hearts. The place that he had burrowed into in such a short time from afar and a week in our arms. Overwhelming my thoughts and emotions, becoming my 'son' for a brief time. But he is in his country, with his mother... he does not need us. And thank whatever higher power around us for that conclusion.
So... "Are you ready for another referral?" We are ready to take it day by day....and once again my cell phone holds a strange power over me.... for those words are coming soon and we will see if another little soul needs us as we search for him or her.
There... it is said and it sits hard. "Yes." I hear myself saying..."we are ready to take it day by day. Yes, we are ready for another referral."
We have been home for 2 1/2 weeks from our Ethiopian trip where things went SO not as anticipated. We know now that there was lying, dishonesty and pure evil involved in the fabrication of little Y's story. That the man who committed perjury in all of this will be going away (hopefully) for a very long time. And that is enough. That he is in the right place with the right person- his mother. That is enough.
That does not take away the hole we feel in our hearts. The place that he had burrowed into in such a short time from afar and a week in our arms. Overwhelming my thoughts and emotions, becoming my 'son' for a brief time. But he is in his country, with his mother... he does not need us. And thank whatever higher power around us for that conclusion.
So... "Are you ready for another referral?" We are ready to take it day by day....and once again my cell phone holds a strange power over me.... for those words are coming soon and we will see if another little soul needs us as we search for him or her.
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